College Life!

Oke, now, I'm not a highschool girl anymore, I'm a college girl. Fyi, I'm studying at Universitas Negri Yogyakarta, majoring international accounting education. to be truth... kuliah di sini bukanlah keinginan dan cita-cita gue, sama sekali. sekarang semua terlambat.. semester 1 udah berlalu. jujur lagi aja... gue nggak betah, nggak betah karena gue gak dapet passion nya kuliah di sini. pertama, gue rasa I'll be fine dan akan ngerasa betah, tetapi sudah 6 bulan berlalu tetep aja nggak nemu. mungkin ini karena jurusan yang gue ambil. di situsnya.. untuk jurusa IPS yang kelas internasional itu tertulis "akuntansi", so without any doubt I chose that, tapi setelah diterima... ternyata... itu kelas pendidikan.. cita-cita gue ingin bergelar SE hancur sudah.. insya Allah kalo lulus nanti, gue bergelas S.Pd. sama sekali nggak ada difikiran ini untuk menjadi guru, apalagi guru akuntansi! yang pernah kepikiran tuh menjadi guru bahasa inggris. cita-cita terpental jauh..

mau nyoba SNMPTN lagi tahun ini, kan belum tentu keterima.. sayang umur juga.. serba salah..

belum lagi tekanan dari pihak orang tua yang sebentar lagi mau pensiun dari pekerjaannya. gue sebagai anak pertama, ngak boleh gagal. harus bisa bahagiain mereka.. entah itu dari sisi materi ataupun apa..

Intinya, I feel like living in hell where there's no way out to reach the world back.

It's Been So Long!

haaaaaaaaaiii Blogger! so excited to see you again! mmhh.. let me check, where was the last time I posted something? nahh. it was 05th Dcember 2009. long enogh!

Broken String

James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

missing and loosing

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have you ever loosing someone?

have you ever missing someone? not only your boyfriend nor girlfriend but someone who really really you love. and I'm sure the answer is: YES, YOU HAVE!

loosing and missing will always be a part of your life.

and I still don't know how to those things which are called missing and loosing :(

and I saw you 'walk away'

Hello again bloggie! I got insomnia syndrome and nothing to do so I decide to write down these thing. It will be about love! (again)

here is the story. one day, one of my-best-ever-friend ordered me to read his blog. yaa I saw it then I got stuck when I read about '24 Kalimat Penyejuk hati'

'Ps: for my bestfriend, si-pengagum-Vero, please read dan pahami, especially kalimat nomor 19.' -> its write above the title. I positive that those words are sent to me cause I'm Mutia, si-pengagum-Vero. you guys wanna know what kind of words that mentioned in the 19th?

" Sungguh menyakitkan mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintaimu, tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang dan tidak pernah memiliki keberanian untuk mengutarakan cintamu kepadanya..."

after reading those words I accidently falling my tears. I was so speechless!

I'm in love with someone. and I never told him that I love him. that is just 3 words but have more than thousand means. I have no enough brave! I just can see him, smile when we met, took some pictures of him and listening to the music about love. it has been a year, but I totally enjoy it (lie). maybe it is just an obsession. whatever the future brings, God will always listen to my prays :)

my hobby turns into my addicted

hello bloggie! it's 00.24 AM I post this blog. well oke this time I want to write about my hobby. and it is called photography! its become my hobby since my daddy bought me an SLR and Nikon D40 is mine :D

so, I introduce you my friend called by Nadia Deandra (check her blog!) who has the same hobby with me. then she brought me into her community which called by Banten Exposure! it is so excited! I got so much knowledges about those photography thingy. 

oke, as day goes by. I'm getting bored my camera :( and I want Nikon D90 so much! it was the time when I borrowed Om Feri's camera. I envy with his camera. yes! his camera is Nikon D90! Nice shoot! I know to be a good photographer doesn't mean they should have a perfect camera :D

so.. I guess it is enough! I'm not fluently in english, so correct me if I'm wrong.

see you later bloggie! will always update!

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It's New Moon, baby!!

Finally.. fim yg selama ini gue nanti-nanti keluar juga

banyak yg kecewa sama film ini BUT I'M NOT!! Some girls are so exciting about JACOB BLACK!! but, again.. I'M NOT!! Edward Cullen is still the hottest! wait..uhmm NO! the hottest is Lee Min Ho hehehe :P